As for Joshua. Oh…my son, Joshua….what a beautiful soul he is and I miss him very very much. He was almost two when he passed away (hospice), with a rare genetic disease. Which was found out after he was born. 🙁 Everything checked out in my tummy, he is the first of three, and it was completely unexpected. My life has been forever altered. I think of him every single day and wish so much that he was here and that I could touch him again. I would take Joshua out to smell flowers and fields of grass. I loved to run running water on him and take baths with him.