Bereaved Mother’s Day.
Five sweet little pairs of booties. Five babies that went to Heaven before me. I was so honored to carry you for the short time that I had with each of you. Jesus is holding you now until we meet again and have such an incredibly sweet reunion. Miscarriage isn’t talked about very much, but I’m changing that. Because, no matter what anyone says, these babies MATTER! I was told by so many people that “it just wasn’t meant to be.” I believe these people meant well and were just struggling with what to say to me. But these babies definitely were meant to be! Every one of them. It doesn’t matter how long or short their precious lives are – every.single.life.matters!! We may not understand God’s plan right now, but that’s where faith comes in. I believe His promise that He is working all things for good for those who love Him. He has a plan. He has never given up on me. None of this has surprised Him. It is all being weaved together to form His perfect plan for my life, here and for eternity. I choose to trust that and cling to that promise every single day. God created each of these sweet babies and He has a plan for them too! One day we will be reunited and will be made complete.
To my 5 sweet babies: I miss you. I miss what could have been. I wish I could have held you, kissed you, smelled your sweet baby smell, and rocked you to sleep. I wish I could have created countless memories with you of your firsts and silly things that you would do. I wish I could hear you laugh, hear your sweet tiny voice, hear your first cry after being born, and feel your hand hold my finger. I wish I could feel your hair and your soft skin. I wish I could dress you in tiny newborn clothes and put socks on your tiny feet. I wish I could watch you as you sleep and dream. I wish I could cuddle you. I wish I could hear your heartbeat and feel your sweet breaths. I wish, I wish 10,000 things more. But all is not lost. Because God still has a plan. We WILL be together. Someday. In Heaven, and forever! I love you all so very, very much!! You WERE meant to be. Your lives MATTER. You are IMPORTANT. And you are ALIVE! Sending you a thousand kisses and hugs up to Heaven today. Mommy loves all of you SO MUCH!!!